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 CJ Vexx
                            ("Don't be afraid to go after what you want to do and what
                            you want to be, but don't be afraid of being willing to pay
                            the price." Lane Frost)
                            AIM: RmgdnX or Myth and Rumor ... 3/23/2001 2:41:50
                            AM #6605466

                            *Its one of those moments. Those times I just want to keel
                            over and be done with it. Dunno when it started, but I woke
                            up with pain from my shoulders to my knees. Everything in
                            between. Aint no good excuse for it neither. Doc told me to
                            be wary of this. But the pain meds are downstairs in the
kitchen, so I dont handle too much of them. Right now, I cant handle any. Curling up on the bed, I try not
to make those noises, but they happen anyhow. I kicked off my blankets about an hour ago. Someone
just shoot me. Reaching out, I consider calling a doctor, but what would I say? I dont want to wake
anyone up, but I need someone to get rid of this pain? I withdraw my hand, replacing it around my waist.
I cant even get up for the heaves that reached me about a minute ago. My mouth waters uncontrollably,
and its kinda sickening. Ok, its all very very sickening.*
 

                               CJ Vexx
                            ("Don't be afraid to go after what you want to do and what
                            you want to be, but don't be afraid of being willing to pay
                            the price." Lane Frost)
                            AIM: RmgdnX or Myth and Rumor ... 3/23/2001 2:46:13
                            AM #6605529

                            *Ok, I got no choice. If I want this, Im either going to have
                            to wake someone up, and probably cause trouble in the
                            entire house, with everyone gawking at me. (might as well
                            just kill me, thanks but no) or go get them downstairs.
                            Unraveling myself slowly. I feel like I was run over, several
thousand times. I sit on the edge of the bed, wondering how Im going to do this. Eighteen stairs, and
about thirty feet between me and my goal. This is going to be impossible.*

*After a minute, I start to push myself off the bed, I cant even stand straight. I reach from the footboard
to a chair for support, then the doorknob, and doorway.*
 

                               CJ Vexx
                            ("Don't be afraid to go after what you want to do and what
                            you want to be, but don't be afraid of being willing to pay
                            the price." Lane Frost)
                            AIM: RmgdnX or Myth and Rumor ... 3/23/2001 2:51:36
                            AM #6605593

                            *I nearly loose my footing entering the hallway, when my
                            stomach seizes for a moment, and I buckle over for several
                            minutes. Tears streaking my face from the pain. Im stronger
                            than this. Aint that what everyones telling me lately. I grapple
                            for the stairway bannister, and look down the steps feeling
slightly dizzy.*
 

 
                                So this is what Death looks like?
                                       Jordan Vexx
                               Who's afraid of the big bad Wolf?
                             "Huff Puff" ~Wolf *The 10th Kingdom*

                         AIM: RmgdnX or Myth and Rumor ... 3/23/2001 3:06:25 AM
                         #6605835

                         *I was nearly asleep, curled up happily with Jada when I felt
                         that. Nearly caused me to cough myself. Untangling myself from
                         her, I sigh slightly remorsefully, and pull on a pair of jeans,
                         grabbing the bottle of pills from the kitchen counter, I hurry to
                         try to stop him from trying to come downstairs.* Hold on, Im
comin. *Looking up to see him stop, gives me pause for a moment, his mind tells me whats going on, but
I cant believe it, it just started, he shouldnt be this far advanced already.* Im comin. *climbing the stairs
quickly, I pick him up easily, he dont protest or say anything, but he groans curling up on himself until i set
him back to bed.* Im sorry, I didnt feel you hurting this bad. *Fumbling with the bottle, I drop two small
white pills into his hand, holding it so he dont drop them, until he tosses them in his mouth, and offer
water. When thats done, he turns on his side, and clenches his arms around himself. I get up and retrieve
the blankets, shaking them out, so they arent tangled, and cover him up. This room is freezing, Ill need to
turn up the thermostat. But for now, all I can do is watch, and be here.*