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CJ Vexx (Legacy)
                 AIM: RmgdnX or Myth and Rumor ... 3/6/2001 5:40:40 AM #6131976

                 Mr Vexx?
                 *Pause*
                 Mr Vexx? *Someone tapping my face, and I open my eyes. An agent looks
                 at me oddly. Then looks up.* Im afraid hes going to need medical attention.
                 *Then looks back down at me, tapping my face again, until I look him in the
                 eye.* Mr Vexx. I need you to focus here.

                 *Im too dizzy to focus. My stomach is clenched in spasms, frighteningly
                 reminicent of a few weeks ago. The overdose. My head falls from his grasp,
                 and hes quick to hold it up again.*

Mr Vexx. *To someone else.* Help me lay him down.

CJ Vexx (Legacy)
                 AIM: RmgdnX or Myth and Rumor ... 3/6/2001 5:54:47 AM #6132038

                 *I can hear everyone clearly. Theyre trying to keep me conscious. But as for
                 seeing? That dimmed to almost non-existant. People in the background unable
                 to cooberate my story with either Morganna or Jordan, no witnesses. Bouy
                 for me....wheee....wish I could enjoy the small victory. Im afraid Im not going
                 to be able to meet Dakota. I just dont feel very well. Feeling the sensation of
                 being lifted, and the nerve-wracking whine of the siren, I try to fade a bit. But
                 Im unable to.*

President Jordan Vexx
                       (Grr, huff puff you are safe with me as a brick built pig house."
                       ~Wolf *The 10th Kingdom*)
                       AIM: RmgdnX or Myth and Rumor ... 3/6/2001 5:58:26 AM
                       #6132046

                       *Sinking my head into my hands. I wasnt able to keep Dakota
                       away. I should have been more forceful. All those lies I told her...*
                       So hes...

                       Mr President. *Its one of the agents from the front seat.* Ive just
                       been told your son is being taken to the hospital.

                       *Looking at Morganna.* ~What do I do?~

 Arcana's Queen of Cups Morganna Ruad "There are
                    things known, and there are things unknown. And in between are the doors."
                    Jim Morrison
                    (Lesa)
                    AIM: Avirra2 ... 3/6/2001 6:00:00 AM #6132049

                    *Meeting his eyes.*

                    ~Is there a choice? You go to him.~

 President Jordan Vexx
                       (Grr, huff puff you are safe with me as a brick built pig house."
                       ~Wolf *The 10th Kingdom*)
                       AIM: RmgdnX or Myth and Rumor ... 3/6/2001 6:02:16 AM
                       #6132065

                       Turn the car around.

                       *Praying quietly the entire way there. Ive no idea Ive gripped
                       Morganna's hand.*

 Arcana's Queen of Cups Morganna Ruad "There are
                    things known, and there are things unknown. And in between are the doors."
                    Jim Morrison
                    (Lesa)
                    AIM: Avirra2 ... 3/6/2001 6:05:40 AM #6132088

                    *I take my free hand and lay it over our joined ones... praying in my own
                    way - to the powers I believe in. Unless he wants me to go.. I will stay.
                    Even The Emperor can be affected by the Wheel of Fortune.... that's
                    life.*

 President Jordan Vexx
                       (Grr, huff puff you are safe with me as a brick built pig house."
                       ~Wolf *The 10th Kingdom*)
                       AIM: RmgdnX or Myth and Rumor ... 3/6/2001 6:08:40 AM
                       #6132105

                       *They spend hours. Unable to figure out whats going on. Its as if his
                       body is slowly halting its processes. When Im finally let in to see
                       him, he's ashen, and I cant find a mental signature from him. Passing
                       my hand over his eyes, there is no shock of mental contact. No
                       trace that he's there. Sending shivers of emptiness through me.* No,
                       Christopher. Dont, please. *In a hoarse whisper. I know he cant
                       hear me.*

President Jordan Vexx
                       (Grr, huff puff you are safe with me as a brick built pig house."
                       ~Wolf *The 10th Kingdom*)
                       AIM: RmgdnX or Myth and Rumor ... 3/6/2001 6:16:21 AM
                       #6132150

                       *Pulling a chair up, to settle in for the duration, Im fighting back all
                       the emotion.* Im sorry Christopher. Too many hospitals, too much
                       pain. Too much of me being in your life. Im sorry. God...

"She's a Wild One,
                                      With an Angel's Face,
                             She's a Woman Child in a State of Grace..."
                                        Dakota Schaefer
                               "When she was Three Years Old on her
                                         Daddy's Knee,
                             He said you can be anything you wanna be...
                                  She's a Wild One running free."

                             (Professional Country singer who can't sing three nights a
                             month.)
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                             3/6/2001 6:17:55 AM #6132156

                             Standing across the street from the hospital in the alley, I
                             stop to catch my breath. I was headed back to the hotel
                             but... but something went wrong. I can feel something
                             wrong. I know... he's... oh GOD.

                             It's my fault, I should have let them change him back. If
                             that's how it had to be. I don't care, human or werewolf, I
don't care. Just let him live, let him be... Please... please...

My smile, my song, my heart, my soul... they're all a part of CJ. I think of him always, I'd be by his side
forever if he asked.

I'd do anything to save his life. Anything.

My feet carry me across the street, dodging cars easily as I skid into the lobby and ask for CJ Vexx's
room. THen I'm moving as fast as I can.

Please, CJ, please... don't go. Please.
 

                           President Jordan Vexx
                       (Grr, huff puff you are safe with me as a brick built pig house."
                       ~Wolf *The 10th Kingdom*)
                       AIM: RmgdnX or Myth and Rumor ... 3/6/2001 6:21:36 AM
                       #6132166

                       *Such a small insignificant part of my life that he wasnt a part of.
                       Forty eight out of my sixty two years, he's been a focus. He was a
                       piece of me that I had been so proud of for so long. Images flicker
                       of him as a boy. Sick as he was, from leukemia when he was a
                       child. Then recovered to have so much more energy than I could
                       have imagined. I still say the doctors were full of shit. But I stayed
                       with him every night, letting him sleep in my "big brother"'s bed.
                       Watching him grow, I had to leave, to keep him safe. Now I have to
leave to keep him safe again. If he pulls through this. Shaking I wipe my face, my hand coming away
wet.*
 

 
                                       "She's a Wild One,
                                      With an Angel's Face,
                             She's a Woman Child in a State of Grace..."
                                        Dakota Schaefer
                               "When she was Three Years Old on her
                                         Daddy's Knee,
                             He said you can be anything you wanna be...
                                  She's a Wild One running free."

                             (Professional Country singer who can't sing three nights a
                             month.)
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                             3/6/2001 6:23:47 AM #6132172

                             My fingers are pushing the door open button as soon as
                             the elivator pulls to a stop, and I skid out of it. Scouring
                             the numbers, I rush for the room they told me with a single
                             minded kind of intensity. I've never begged for something
                             so hard, but this feels so strange, it's like...

                             I'm heading right for his room and should there be no
interuption, right through the door. I'm sure someone's going to try and stop me though.

President Jordan Vexx
                       (Grr, huff puff you are safe with me as a brick built pig house."
                       ~Wolf *The 10th Kingdom*)
                       AIM: RmgdnX or Myth and Rumor ... 3/6/2001 6:26:40 AM
                       #6132183

                       *Dakota is recognized by security, and they make no attempt to
                       stop her. The room is dimmed, just a little. Machines are a plague,
                       pumping out all kinds of noises. The strangest being his slowing
                       heartrate. Or she might catch a stray sniffling noise. But he lies still.*

"She's a Wild One,
                                      With an Angel's Face,
                             She's a Woman Child in a State of Grace..."
                                        Dakota Schaefer
                               "When she was Three Years Old on her
                                         Daddy's Knee,
                             He said you can be anything you wanna be...
                                  She's a Wild One running free."

                             (Professional Country singer who can't sing three nights a
                             month.)
                             ICQ#: Off AIM: Rhiya Firegirl MUN: Rhiya ...
                             3/6/2001 6:29:39 AM #6132201

                             Oh God... just remembering to close the door behind me,
                             I step towards his bed. He's... he's dying, isn't he? His
                             heartbeat... and he shouldn't be that still. Stepping
                             forward, stricken beyond belief, I rest my hand on his and
                             whisper, "CJ... please, can you hear me? Please... oh
                             God.... please... please wake up. I'm so sorry.... just
                             please, wake up."
 

                           President Jordan Vexx
                       (Grr, huff puff you are safe with me as a brick built pig house."
                       ~Wolf *The 10th Kingdom*)
                       AIM: RmgdnX or Myth and Rumor ... 3/6/2001 6:32:16 AM
                       #6132215

                       He cant hear you. *Gruffly, then closing my eyes and swallowing
                       hard.* Because hes not there. *Its almost impossible to bear this.
                       Even before I never came this close to losing my son. Its like hes
                       gone already. Not the slightest mental touch. This cant be
                       happening.*

"She's a Wild One,
                                      With an Angel's Face,
                             She's a Woman Child in a State of Grace..."
                                        Dakota Schaefer
                               "When she was Three Years Old on her
                                         Daddy's Knee,
                             He said you can be anything you wanna be...
                                  She's a Wild One running free."

                             (Professional Country singer who can't sing three nights a
                             month.)
                             ICQ#: Off AIM: Rhiya Firegirl MUN: Rhiya ...
                             3/6/2001 6:35:28 AM #6132233

                             Turning slowly, I look back at Jordan. I didn't even
                             know... But my skin is paling incredibly and tears are
                             already welling in my eyes. "What... what do you mean
                             he's not there? What are you talking about?"

                             No please... Cj, come back. I don't care what you are, I
                             don't care at all, just be here. Live. I'll stay, I'll go. I'll do
anything. Don't leave, please... PLEASE.

When I first saw him, I knew he was different then most men. He was... soft, gentle. And I knew that I
shouldn't care about him, because it was wrong. But I couldn't help it, and from then on, he was had my
heart. Now, just when we could be together, just when I could hold him, we could be like it should have
been... He's lost.

No, I can't accept. Please GOD you can't take him.
 

                           President Jordan Vexx
                       (Grr, huff puff you are safe with me as a brick built pig house."
                       ~Wolf *The 10th Kingdom*)
                       AIM: RmgdnX or Myth and Rumor ... 3/6/2001 6:37:47 AM
                       #6132248

                       Because being a telepath, Im linked to him. And I dont feel him in
                       this room. *It takes almost a full minute to finish that sentence.
                       Thoughts race through my mind. If I lose him, Ill never be able to
                       finish this administration. Ill have to resign. I cant go on like this. A
                       parent shouldnt outlive their child.*

"She's a Wild One,
                                      With an Angel's Face,
                             She's a Woman Child in a State of Grace..."
                                        Dakota Schaefer
                               "When she was Three Years Old on her
                                         Daddy's Knee,
                             He said you can be anything you wanna be...
                                  She's a Wild One running free."

                             (Professional Country singer who can't sing three nights a
                             month.)
                             ICQ#: Off AIM: Rhiya Firegirl MUN: Rhiya ...
                             3/6/2001 6:46:32 AM #6132296

                             My body starts shivvering violently. It's completely shock
                             and I turn to look at him, my fingers tightening on his for a
                             moment. "Then... then where is he?!"

                             He's not in the room but he left his body behind could
                             mean he's... braindead. NO, No no no no no. He could
                             be a vegetable. Tears slide down my cheeks.
 

                           President Jordan Vexx
                       (Grr, huff puff you are safe with me as a brick built pig house."
                       ~Wolf *The 10th Kingdom*)
                       AIM: RmgdnX or Myth and Rumor ... 3/6/2001 6:50:19 AM
                       #6132325

                       *Shaking my head, I cant answer. For the longest time, I just dont
                       know. Getting up again, I pass a hand over his eyes once more and
                       still get nothing. Again, and the same result. Turning away for a few
                       moments. I cross my arms, and sink my face into my left hand.*

                       *Again I turn around after a few moments, and push, destroying
                       every thought in the way deep into his mind. Ive never done this
                       before. It hurts like the old migraines. Searching desperately for
some sign of him. I visibly tremble from the effort, and lightly close my hand over his eyes.

Moments pass...and I feel a twinge. Surprised, I stop...everything for a moment, and look down.*

"She's a Wild One,
                                      With an Angel's Face,
                             She's a Woman Child in a State of Grace..."
                                        Dakota Schaefer
                               "When she was Three Years Old on her
                                         Daddy's Knee,
                             He said you can be anything you wanna be...
                                  She's a Wild One running free."

                             (Professional Country singer who can't sing three nights a
                             month.)
                             ICQ#: Off AIM: Rhiya Firegirl MUN: Rhiya ...
                             3/6/2001 6:55:50 AM #6132350

                             I just watch him the whole time... my fingers tightening on
                             CJ's and I pray. Pray deep down, that whatever Jordan is
                             doing, whatever he's doign will work. Where is he, God,
                             please... give him back to us. We'll put it all aside, I don't
                             give a damn. Just be there. Please...

                             Looking up at Jordan then, I ask, "What?"
 

                           President Jordan Vexx
                       (Grr, huff puff you are safe with me as a brick built pig house."
                       ~Wolf *The 10th Kingdom*)
                       AIM: RmgdnX or Myth and Rumor ... 3/6/2001 6:59:03 AM
                       #6132359

                       *Shaking my head, I stand waiting. A basic contact. Something that
                       doesnt even require thought, doesnt even require conscious
                       acknowlegement. If he's there, even in the most primitive way, itll be
                       like sonar, and return to me. Its a long wait though, Ive nearly given
                       up, deciding the first ping was merely a fluke when I recieve it back,
                       even stronger than I had hoped for.* Hes here...just buried. *Letting
                       go of him for now. I back off to take a breath. Coughing a little from
                       the exertion.* Keep talking to him. He may eventually hear you.

"She's a Wild One,
                                      With an Angel's Face,
                             She's a Woman Child in a State of Grace..."
                                        Dakota Schaefer
                               "When she was Three Years Old on her
                                         Daddy's Knee,
                             He said you can be anything you wanna be...
                                  She's a Wild One running free."

                             (Professional Country singer who can't sing three nights a
                             month.)
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                             3/6/2001 7:03:42 AM #6132380

                             Nodding quickly, I take his hand into my hands and lean
                             down to kiss his knuckles softly. "What did this? If... God,
                             CJ I'm so sorry..." Without looking up at Jordan, I say
                             softly, my lips pressed to his knuckles, "I don't care what
                             you choose, I'm not going to leave you. Human or
                             werewolf, I still love you. I'm going to stay right here until
                             you wake up, you hear me? All you gotta do is wake up,
sweets, and I'll do anything. Anything to see that."

After a moment, I look up at the President and say softly, "You gonna be okay?" The cough... and his
head injury.

President Jordan Vexx
                       (Grr, huff puff you are safe with me as a brick built pig house."
                       ~Wolf *The 10th Kingdom*)
                       AIM: RmgdnX or Myth and Rumor ... 3/6/2001 7:05:58 AM
                       #6132386

                       *Nodding, I sit down hard on the chair.* Its about him right now.
                       *Meaning Ill make any sacrifice I have to. Despite the cost to
                       myself. Im certainly feeling ten years older than I did a year ago. But
                       I wont show that now. Hes out there, somewhere, not conscious.
                       Barely even knowing what existance is. But he can come back. His
                       vitals had stabelized.*

"She's a Wild One,
                                      With an Angel's Face,
                             She's a Woman Child in a State of Grace..."
                                        Dakota Schaefer
                               "When she was Three Years Old on her
                                         Daddy's Knee,
                             He said you can be anything you wanna be...
                                  She's a Wild One running free."

                             (Professional Country singer who can't sing three nights a
                             month.)
                             ICQ#: Off AIM: Rhiya Firegirl MUN: Rhiya ...
                             3/6/2001 7:11:44 AM #6132414

                             Just have to... lead him back. Snagging the other chair with
                             my foot, I pull it to the side of his bed, my hand still
                             clasping his as I perch on it next to him. God, what a
                             scare... now he has to wake up.

                             Very softly nodding back at the President, I whisper softly
                             into CJ's ear, "We're both here, me and your dad. We're
on the same page here, CJ, we want you back. Please, just wake up... let us lead you back if you need
someone to lead you. I'm here, your dad's here, we're so worried about you... We both love you."

I look up over at the President and murmer, "And we both want you back."

Strange what can be bridged for a time in one night.

President Jordan Vexx
                       (Grr, huff puff you are safe with me as a brick built pig house."
                       ~Wolf *The 10th Kingdom*)
                       AIM: RmgdnX or Myth and Rumor ... 3/6/2001 7:14:02 AM
                       #6132425

                       *nodding to her, I give his hand a gentle squeeze. But I only feel a
                       moments progress, which is a shock in and of itself. A moment
                       where he was fully here, and then gone again. It sends me into a
                       short coughing fit, before Im able to recover.*
"She's a Wild One,
                                      With an Angel's Face,
                             She's a Woman Child in a State of Grace..."
                                        Dakota Schaefer
                               "When she was Three Years Old on her
                                         Daddy's Knee,
                             He said you can be anything you wanna be...
                                  She's a Wild One running free."

                             (Professional Country singer who can't sing three nights a
                             month.)
                             ICQ#: Off AIM: Rhiya Firegirl MUN: Rhiya ...
                             3/6/2001 7:18:30 AM #6132447

                             Steeling myself from asking if the President is okay, I
                             reach over and stroke my fingers down CJ's cheek while
                             whispering, "We're here CJ. Please come back, we need
                             you." Tears still stream rather silently down my cheek, only
                             adding a little huskiness to my voice as I lean over and
                             whisper in his ear very gently, "C'mon CJ, we just found
                             each other... we just have each other. Come back to me,
please... Come back so we can be together. I promised I'd never leave you, don't you leave me now! I'm
here, I'm not going anywhere, I just need you back with me."

A soft sigh breaking from my throat, I say gently, "C'mon, CJ, just think... you an' me having together...
maybe a pup or two? I'm gonna wait for ya, sweets, I'm not gonna let you go."

President Jordan Vexx
                       (Grr, huff puff you are safe with me as a brick built pig house."
                       ~Wolf *The 10th Kingdom*)
                       AIM: RmgdnX or Myth and Rumor ... 3/6/2001 7:21:23 AM
                       #6132456

                       *But only silence pays her an answer. He didnt hear that.
                       Unfortunately. I sit listening. Lost myself.*

"She's a Wild One,
                                      With an Angel's Face,
                             She's a Woman Child in a State of Grace..."
                                        Dakota Schaefer
                               "When she was Three Years Old on her
                                         Daddy's Knee,
                             He said you can be anything you wanna be...
                                  She's a Wild One running free."

                             (Professional Country singer who can't sing three nights a
                             month.)
                             ICQ#: Off AIM: Rhiya Firegirl MUN: Rhiya ...
                             3/6/2001 7:25:58 AM #6132472

                             I won't stop talking until I'm hoarse. I'll talk myself hoarse
                             to get him back here... I'll do anything...

                             Voice. That's... maybe. Very softly, I take a breath and
                             begin to hum the song I know he loves when I sing. My
                             voice is a little huskier so I take a deep breath before
                             singing gently in his ear, my breath on his skin just for him.
He might even feel my tears on his skin...

My eyes closed, I just sing softly... Come back, CJ. Please...

President Jordan Vexx
                       (Grr, huff puff you are safe with me as a brick built pig house."
                       ~Wolf *The 10th Kingdom*)
                       AIM: RmgdnX or Myth and Rumor ... 3/6/2001 7:28:16 AM
                       #6132480

                       Dear God lookout, Dakota. *I feel him coming, but its not all him.
                       Something... he awakens screaming, terror and pain at unfathomable
                       levels. From what hes felt and experienced in he hours since he left
                       us. He stares past anyone alive in the room, trying to sit up. When
                       he stops, he shudders violently whimpering trying to curl into a ball.
                       Im trying to offer comfort, but its as though Im not a part of his
                       reality.*

"She's a Wild One,
                                      With an Angel's Face,
                             She's a Woman Child in a State of Grace..."
                                        Dakota Schaefer
                               "When she was Three Years Old on her
                                         Daddy's Knee,
                             He said you can be anything you wanna be...
                                  She's a Wild One running free."

                             (Professional Country singer who can't sing three nights a
                             month.)
                             ICQ#: Off AIM: Rhiya Firegirl MUN: Rhiya ...
                             3/6/2001 7:30:16 AM #6132486

                             It takes me a moment as I leap back to realize I can smell
                             how scared he is. I can actually smell it. Then immediately,
                             I move to his side again and whispers in his ear, "CJ... CJ
                             are you alright?"

                             God, please... what's wrong with him?
 

                     CJ Vexx (Legacy)
                 AIM: RmgdnX or Myth and Rumor ... 3/6/2001 7:33:50 AM #6132498

                 *Rolling to my side. Trapped in two worlds. One feral like the wolf they tried
                 to take from me. The other in an oblivion. I can see both worlds clearly,and it
                 terrorizes me. I want the comfort I feel around me, but it isnt helping.
                 Someone...please...stop one, and leave me with the other. Just one.*

President Jordan Vexx
                       (Grr, huff puff you are safe with me as a brick built pig house."
                       ~Wolf *The 10th Kingdom*)
                       AIM: RmgdnX or Myth and Rumor ... 3/6/2001 7:41:46 AM
                       #6132532

                       Hes....*Wincing.* He sees too much. Its like his mind has been
                       halved. *Shaking my head, even I cant comprehend this. I cant
                       wrap my thoughts around it.*

"She's a Wild One,
                                      With an Angel's Face,
                             She's a Woman Child in a State of Grace..."
                                        Dakota Schaefer
                               "When she was Three Years Old on her
                                         Daddy's Knee,
                             He said you can be anything you wanna be...
                                  She's a Wild One running free."

                             (Professional Country singer who can't sing three nights a
                             month.)
                             ICQ#: Off AIM: Rhiya Firegirl MUN: Rhiya ...
                             3/6/2001 7:46:09 AM #6132561

                             Halved...

                             Wrapping my arms tight around him, I whisper soothingly
                             before saying, "It's okay... I'm here... we're here. You're
                             with us now, it's okay. You'll be okay."

                             Something has to be done. "I have to talk to Grandma
Shante, she'll know what to do. She's my grandma on my ma's side back home, she's been... well,
watching pups born and made into wolves for a long time."
 

                     CJ Vexx (Legacy)
                 AIM: RmgdnX or Myth and Rumor ... 3/6/2001 7:50:02 AM #6132579

                 *Tears line my face, but I dont have the presence of mind to be ashamed.
                 Nothing here but primal instinct, and terror. The void, oblivion the place
                 where nothing is, is so much closer than the feral thoughts of the wolf. Ive
                 been cast away. I feel another developing, one that can soak up the comfort
                 she offers. One who can let myself be held, I grasp her tight, feeling his hand
                 on the back of my neck, holding me here. Away from the void. Shivering
                 constantly, I make small desperate noises to her, fading to a sleep of sorts
                 already.*